Into the deep uknown...

We plunge.

It's not like when you are a little kid and you get floaties on your arms and your feet can touch the ground in the shallow waters of life. Sure, as little kids in life our parents coddle us and slowly teach us to speak, walk, math, not to touch the stove, to drive...

But we plunge into the deep end. We can never right what is right or wrong, it is inherent in us. A moral code is embedded into our DNA or something, where deep down inside we just know. What that is, what tells us, our "conscience," what that is, I do not have any answers for you.

We can never learn what we are "supposed" to do with our future and that is the deep unknown. It is a tunnel, a never ending tunnel and depending on what you believe there will be a light at the end of the tunnel. It is dark, is is damn, we are ankle deep in water and our shoes are soaked, but we continue on anyways thru this dark tunnel towards the light we see. Hoping. Wanting. Believing in something that carries us forward, towards the big bright light.

The thing is if we stop and look during our trek down into the abyss of darkness there are tiny pinholes of light and giant cracks in the tunnel along the way. They are not big enough for us to get thru, but big enough to let the light in and brighten this day out of however many we have left till we reach the end. The pinholes are images, scenes of us playing and laughing as children. An image of a family dinner or our senior prom. Images of hugs and tears shared between loved ones. This light from all these images fill you up and give you the courage to walk further down, into the abyss. There are some pinholes filled with death, hunger, hatred and fighting, dark images somehow shining thru the tunnel with the light.

Why? You wonder, would such darkness, such sadness be carried by the light. But you have many steps ahead of you, wading in the water, to figure out that it is because during your life they helped you grow, they taught you invaluable lessons, they also give you the strength to continue forward.

The future, the light, the five steps ahead, the next pinhole, the next giant crack filling part of the tunnel with brilliant light... I cannot tell you what it is or what you will see or experience when you get there. That is the future. The deep unknown.

As always, with love
Jacob Grant Gabriel

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