The Past

What is there to say about the past? So many people have so many different views on it. Let it go. Acknowledge it. Let it be a part of you. Forget it. Move on.

I've always struggled with this concept and recently got in a, well lets say disagreement about the subject with a good friend, and this conversation led to -off topic- another which officially led us in different directions in life. Thus, she becoming part of my past. She said I dwell and live too much in the past and I argued "at least I acknowledge it! I'm not one to just forget someone or something and move on or hold in my feelings like I am holding my breath until I pass out."

I love my past. I love everyone in it. I love my mistakes and failures and I love my triumphs. I have lost much and have gained much, as I'm sure all of you have as well. It has made me everything that I am, inside and out. It has made me a good hearted and loving person, a caring one and also a confident one that knows where to draw the line. Sure I have let people down, but I have gone out of my way to help them to. Sure, I have hurt people but I have also loved them more than they could ever know.

I know this isn't a flowing blog, it is random and all over the place. But, I am using this to vent and what I wanted to say is I was at this place tonight and memories came flooding back. Everything was so real, it seemed tangible. So much so that I saw the back of someones head and my heart leapt thinking it was him, excited to start a friendship out of what used to be love and make up for all the lost time.

Maybe my point is when you find something good whether it be a girl you love that becomes your best friend, your best friend, or the boy that you fall in love with try your hardest to be open about it and let it be present and future and not let them fade into the past... where all they are, are memories floating in your mind.

Hold on to what you love and if you have lost it... don't give up the fight.

As always with my regards,
Jacob Gabriel.

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